the hollow

the birds were speaking up while we were laying down
it was 4 am & the storm was raging
clap our hands to thunder, lightning had no sound
so please understand it's the sky I'm blaming

don't feign your constitution weak
politics or undertempo heartbeats
if you couldn't handle this then why'd you take the leap?

you can blame me for all the shit I wished you'd be
but I will still blame you, cause the opposite of love is apathy

I'd name our child blue or hazel or gold
she'd be walking eyes, full of heartbreak & truth
but she wouldn't look like you -- she'd look like me, twofold
she'd be bastardized & such necessary proof

I'll push push push against your will
till your insides feel the way that mine feel
what, can't you handle that? well baby, see, that's the kill

you can blame me for all the shit I made you be
but I will blame you, cause the opposite of love is apathy

thanks was all he wrote, then vanished beneath a bridge
& I realised that I never thanked him
for lending me a shoulder, a different set of lips
a world outside of oakland when it's raining

that night the trains stayed up with me
whistling the secret song of guilty
if I hadn't told you would you have forgotten all about me?

you can blame me for all the shit I wished you'd be
but I will still blame you, cause the opposite of love is apathy